MERRIMENT'S DUPE

This aidiladha's eve have brought me into myriad number of jubilance moments and favorable vicinities.
The super-special one is the attendance of relatives from all around the place,including the one that I haven't meet for an umpteen years,I guess..
Wow,the surrounding was somehow unimaginable,crowded and muffled with all sort of dins,having the conversations with each other,while the laughing and hilarious waves came across my ears as well,at least a chunk, huhu...in fact,I couldn't even recognize which one is currently laughing,talking,shouting,..etc (this phrase was a simplest way to get the scene described)

Well,since I was the oldest son in my family,(and also a matured person in the future,hihi..),I am surely glad to see the whole cousins from nowhere,with a nice,sweet,and cunning smiles from their faces..Haahaahaa..!!They made me laugh..


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......but sometimes,they made me feel like a pathetic loser,trying to get along with the jokes and jest.

I am not a sweet talker,not a joker either...
but,at least,i wanna be the best person in my family's huge community.
I want the smiles,the respect,the whole things that related with the sacred connection of the family...

God,what am i saying..??
This is just a waste of time...
Well,I'm such a loser among them...

Truly I am..